Lockdown has put me through my paces, there’s no doubt about that. Letting go, holding on, making peace, resisting. There’s nothing like a global pandemic to shine a light on your shiz in a wonderful, undeniable way. It’s just whether we stay attentive to our shiz rising to the surface or we let it call the shots.
There’s a particular belief I had done a lot of work around… the reflection, the awareness, the challenging it time and time again.
But whilst “how busy and productive I am, measures how successful I have been and will be…I must not be or be seen to be lazy…I must try hard and work hard because if things fail it’ll be because I didn’t TRY hard enough” was no longer worn like a badge of honour, it was still a work in progress.
In those initial weeks of isolation, it reared its head big style. It felt once more like heavy stones in my pockets whilst demanding me to sprint, “this is the only way to get this done!”. Fighting against the lack of time + grieving the lack of alone time + feeling the fear of the unknown = this was a perfect combination for burnout.
The irony of it all is that living in this way keeps you living small (and tired). If “being busy & getting it done” continually trumps rest, reflection & having the headspace to create that incredible, exciting, new something that might make life a little more spacious and easy…the latter is pretty much impossible.
We all know in our heart of hearts that keeping ourselves busy with the small stuff, keeps us playing small, living small, feeling small but unfortunately does not keep the risk small. Not ever living in your full potential, being in fact scared of your full potential, always in compromise because there was just one more busy busy busy thing you needed to do first…this impact of this could be huge.
So how did I deal with it? Well firstly I let that belief rule the roost and have a little party again for a bit and I quickly realised it felt totally crap. I now had a new norm that felt good without this belief and so I stopped. I spoke to friends, family and my coach about it and gave it all some air. I once again challenged it with rest and clearing my schedule. Surrendering to more time in pyjamas with my daughter and daydreaming. I challenged it with reflection, embodiment & centring practices to understand where it was living in my body, journalling to give it voice and taking intentional action every day. There’s nothing more annoying for this negative chatter than when you decide to rest and breathe and you remember it feels fucking great when it’s screaming at you to Nooooo!DO!DO!DO!
It felt rebellious.
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